I want to tell you that if you don’t want your partner to be sad, or uncertain, then you shouldn’t partner up with a sad, uncertain person.
Is that what I am? I think it is, a lot of the time. I certainly don’t feel certain about very much at all. Maybe sometimes, from time to time, when I’m full of electricity and love for the world. But when I’m a cold little echo of that person, I can’t remember much, least of all my certainty. That seems so much like a myth.
Sad. Angry. Negative emotions. The dark end of the spectrum. Inertia. Coldness. Lonely dark instability.
I miss my strengths, when I feel so weak.
I miss them like a childhood friend who moved away.